and this last one went smooth, baby, smooth.
It is done.
And I feel really well,
light, happy
at moments I wonder
what did I learn from all this?
what is going to change in my life this year?
what is going to open, what will close?
and at other moments
I don't have the need
to analyze "what all of this meant"
I'm digging that place
because why should I bother
with the tiring circle of meaning making
when the truth of my life is
it's early July
the tomato plants in my garden are tall
the tomatoes are fat and green
George is jumping in the swimming pool at camp
and learning to swim
and June is
June is
soaking up everything there is under the sun
and Fred and I are very grounded together,
very in love
and my friend Sheila who lives in Chicago
came to visit,
the day we spent together
was this phenomenal day
it came to an end, my chemo
July is here
we are eating watermelon
with the windows open
a cross breeze blowing
through this old house
that needs some fixing
that Fred and I love so much
and have worked so hard to make
our home.
What does it all mean
seems pointless right now
that game, that analysis
it all means, I'm here
in this moment, that is
here, then gone.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
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I love Valley Green so much and used to take Ben there long ago. We loved the statue of an Indian(native American) that sits way up on a rock hill. It makes me happy that that is a place y ou and Georgie go.
ReplyDeleteI wish so much I could attain the positive place You call your own! you inspire me Gabby. You make lemonade out of lemons all day long
xoxoxo Sandra